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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:30

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was very sick at this time too.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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So, i spoilt her more .

As i do to all so called friends.?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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I don,t even have a pension.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was seconnd youngest,

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We all went to grammer schools

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She wouldn,t have been !

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Comes on , in middle age.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

What did i know ?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Who then, do I blame.?

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I couldn’t, believe it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He resisted the act ,that day.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

It was going to be , some day.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was scared of men, in general

And i lived it daily.

Especially a lifetime of it.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Put me off passion for life!!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Would this be the day?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

So whats the point in blame.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I have no regrets .

I said to her

She loved him until the end.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But it wasn’t much.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He knew the spot.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Im still living with it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My family never makes their pension either.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She found it foreign!.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Was to survive, this bastard.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I will be 64.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We were not on the streets..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I think the readers, may guess!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She was in good health!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

One cannot live in the past .

I was 9 years of age.

My life is so biszare .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Ive learnt so much.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why did i forgive my father ?

This is soul school!.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But, we were locked up after school.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

All the time i was locked up.

I could never make a relationship work though!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I never cut or harmed myself..

I waited trembling.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She married twice! .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I write beautiful poetry .

When she asked me how she looked .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He was dying to do it , i knew.